Happygirl95

Clueless Me.

2012-01-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. It's the 7th day of CNY and it's gna end soon!! :-( And yes, it's the laz week of Jan or rather the laz few days of the month. So fast, it's feb and you know feb is a short month.

It's my prep exam tomorrow and I'm not studying. Am I the only one that hasn't started studying at all? This is not a good sign at all. Sigh..... I totally lost all my motivation and I don't know how am I suppose to study.

Since I've already chose to go up to sec 5 and take my o'lvl at the end of this year, then I should not be regretting and must start studying hard. I've been telling myself to start studying at night everyday in the morning but I fail to do it. This is bad.....

Like what I'd said, for the sake of my mom, I muz work hard. Gambatte ~~~

Trust

2012-01-18T22:39:00.001+08:00

How many times have you forgive this one special somebody even if he/she let you down?

This is upsetting me. If you wna make me looks like a joke or being sarcastic, go ahead. I have enough of it. You pin-pointed my mistakes and flaws then what about yourself? You can say you're good-looking for a hundred times to a hundred of different people but your character just.... Shucks. I mean I've already bear with you for so long and I know this is it.

You can try all kind of ways to lie or act but whatever you do it will still be deep inside you. If you always wna argue with me, go ahead. You like to gossip behind other people's back, GO AHEAD. Seriously?

Not gna trust anyone. Period. This year is gna be tough. But still I don't need you. In fact, I don't really care about what you gna do next. Zzzzz

Okay, enough of the ranting and shit. Off to do Jian Bao. Goodbye to my sleep. Zzzzzz

I fall too fast

2012-01-10T19:28:00.005+08:00

If I could delete you from my life, that would be amazing.

O'lvl result released yesterday and i guess everyone's feeling different right now. Maybe it changes some of the people's lives. But whatever is it, good or bad, remember that your family is always there for you :-)

Well, God has always answered my prayers without fail. Yesterday was rlly a happy day for me.. and thank God for giving me a happy day too. You manage to get into poly. I'm happy for you. But i think this year will be a hard time for me to survive. There's always one thing in my mind - 'there's no point for me to go to school any more'. Why? Cause you are not in school any more. I've been turning my head around looking at the table you sat last year during recess. With or without you, you're always the one distracting me. Oh well... Silly me...

Well, whatever is it, good luck to you. Well as for me, i need time.

China post 2!

2012-01-03T20:17:00.015+08:00

(My fun classmate!)

(Two years ago trip mate, Chrislyn and Liqi)

(Sing song!!!)

(At the highest building in Gutian! ^.^)

(My failed paper cutting....)

(Leave our group and went out for dinner!)

( Look at the red girl with white hair band, her's is the correct one!!)

(The toot toot car we took to travel!)

(My whole class!)

HALLO EVERYONE!!

It's officially the 3rd day of 2012 and school starts today. I'm involved in the sec 1 orientation and i must say, these kids are rlly adorable. Maybe becuz of the age gap... I mean, they are fun to play with. Hehe, they are all very sweet people and i like them. ^-^

First day of school, and i am not used to it. My girl friends are not here with me, i can only turn to my left and talk. No more front nor back. I used to grab their hands together and talk. But now i only left with Adelicia Ong. How sad.... Miss all of them. Hope to see them soon...

You all must study hard okay! A lot of my juniors ask me if N'lvl is easy or difficult... If you study very hard for it, it'll not be hard. But most importantly, PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS! Okay, i know it's funny for me to say this, but DON'T SLEEP IN CLASS!! I do that too often and i feel regretted. I can't say i will stop sleeping in class.... Cuz i know i'll sleep in class....... Without fail, so yeah.

My new year resolution? It will only be STUDY HARD FOR O'LVL. Nothing else just this. I don't want to have so many resolutions, goals and stuff becuz i know i'll never get them done. Just one each year, i still have many many years ahead.

Anyway, i'm rlly wondering how many people are still reading my blog. Would you mind helping me one thing? Be it being anonymous or not, just post me something in my formspring so I would know who's still here with me! Hehehe. Thank a million! :-)

Give me something that will haunt me when you're not around.

China post 1

2011-12-31T14:50:00.037+08:00

(Christmas celebration)

(Guess how old is he? hehe)

(My darling, xiao yan zhi)

(Millions of steps to the top of the hill)

(After walking up the long stairs.....)

(My 2 years ago friend♥)

(hehe, my darling so glamorous!!!)

(Went to KTV and i gei kiang(act smart), drank beer and got drunk)

(Visited the schools!)

(This is the pretty girl that i saw! GOD DAMN GORGEOUS!!)

When to China, fuzhou for 8 days with 10 singaporeans trip mates and 30 odds from malaysia and they are all very nice people. The weather there is very cold. About 1 to -1 degree and we're all shivering......

I don't know, but sometimes when some people hear the word China, first thing came to their mind will be 'Eeyer'. Well, truth is, it wasn't as bad as you thought it would be.... Yes, hygiene wasn't as clean as Singapore but i would say that it's a good experience for me.

Don't judge, they are humans too.

Happy New Year eve! It'll be New Year tomorrow!! 2012!!! Im so excited. To start school, to study hard. I promise myself i'll study hard, i'd let anyone down, but not myself.

ps/ Photo credits: Xin yan :-)

psps/ Post 2 will be up soon, many photos otw :-)

Happygirl95

2011-12-19T15:42:00.004+08:00

So hallo guy! I've a good news! Yeaaaaa, I make it to sec 5 and I'm super happy!!!!! I'm like real happy and I can't describe it. All those wonderful smses are rolling in til now!
I've been crying when I'm in the school hall and I bet everyone thinks I'm crazy obviously..... Congrats to everyone who pass :-)
I miss every single one of my friends now.. And to those who decide to leave cdss.. Good luck, I miss you all. Xx

Mistakes

2011-12-17T23:47:00.004+08:00

(this is me)

Getting results on monday, and i'm kinda worry about it. All i know is, i've already done my best and hope that it won't disappoint me, neither my mom. The thing i'm afraid the most is i'll see my mom's disappointed face again. That's the only thing i don't want to see forever and ever.

I miss school, what about you? If you followed me on twitter, you would know that i miss miss malathi hahaha. She's my ss and history teacher, the one i complain about very often. And now.... i miss her irritating high pitch voice :-(

Oh ya, my formspring is flooded with qns and i've already deleted all. Cuz it will be easier and i'll log in every 2 days he-he. If i did not answer you your qns yet, you can ask me again ok! So sorry about it. :-)

Christmas soon, have you got your christmas presents all ready? I have not...

Not all scars shows, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels.

I don't know y is this so small.. But I like it cuz my sist do this for me (meant for Christmas hahaha) so adorable! :-)

Everything will be a'right

2011-12-14T00:53:00.005+08:00

I'm thinking if i should continue feeling this way a not. It's so hard. I mean like, this period maybe short, but it's tough and seems like a long period of time to me. Every time when people talk about 2 years ago thing. I feel so into it as if i knew everything 'bout 2 years back including others'. I know i'm silly.. I know i'm naive and too trusting. But what can i do about it.. Shan't talk about this.

I miss my Dinosaur mama. She's not back from Hk yet and i miss her very much.. Okay, i think i just scared myself.. Thought that N(A) N'lvl results released on fri.... Hope it will be out next mon, when mom's back. I need mom to be with me there. She's my lucky star :-)

Are you afraid of your results? I'm frigging nervous until i can't sleep at night.... Hit the lights now, g'd night lovely.

This night is flawless.

2011-12-10T02:34:00.007+08:00

Hi, you're still awake? I'm tired, but i can't sleep.. Mom and Dad were at KL just now in the evening, visiting my aunt and now, they are at KL airport waiting for their flight to hong kong. Kinda miss mom now... and the thought of her coming back on the 16th dec makes me feel so upset... The day mom come back is near the day my results release.. You know that feeling?

I've been watching this show above (^^^^^) for a period of time ever since N'lvl ends. I guess all of you've heard about it. Yup, it's a china show. So what? Don't judge. So yeah, I freaking cried for millions of times whenever i watch this. Many of them said that the old version is better, im gna check it out soon hehe. It's hilarious, touching and cute! You should catch it, but for those who don't understand chinese...... too bad. Or perhaps, I'LL FILM ONE ENGLISH VERSION FOR YOU HAHAHA :-)

The thing i'm afraid the most is you will forget about me, about us. It's okay if you're not coming back to me but please, don't forget about me, remember about us. Forget about all those stupid and lame quarrels we had before. I want to be your friend again. A friend who can talk to you without feeling awkward or uncomfortable. A friend who can text you first and not feeling like an annoying orange. A friend in heart not just in name..... It's been 2 years and still counting on. i don't ask for anything more now, just hope that you won't forget about what we were and what we have once. Now, right at this moment, i'm so afraid that i'll forget how you'll look like soon. You're the one who keeps me going on everyday. It's not gna be easy, but it's not gna be tough too. All those hard times will be over soon. Not gna expect anything, least i get disappointed again....

Heading to bed now, xx

Made In Candy

2011-12-03T14:05:00.005+08:00

Wna get Made In Candy but don't really know where's the exact location they are at? Then come down to Ngee Ann City Takashimaya B2 food hall! They are over there at this period of time and best part is, they are showing the public how they make the candies!!!!

Exciting right!! :-)

So hello hunnies, im back again! My twitter is not as active as usual because i think it's not a safe place to rant over there anymore. So yeah.. It's DECEMBER NOW!! And it's 2012 next year!!! How fast right! :-) But still, Christmas please come sooner. Can't wait for Christmas.... Presents. Hee-hee. #christmaspleasecomesooner

Results release in a few weeks time. GOD bless me. I mean, GOD BLESSED ME ALREADY.

Okay, heading to get my pay now at Duxton! Bye :-)

Small town girl

2011-11-24T19:46:00.002+08:00

(cut my fringe, hehe)

Is that the reason why I'm feeling so down and scared? I've never feel this afraid before and this is killing me. Like what I'd said, I've so much to ask.. I know I'll be fine someday. I know. I just hope that everything will come to an end soon. Including those mixed feelings, the abandon relationship and failed friendship.. I hope everything will be okay soon. Really.

Results in a few weeks time, I'm so freaking worried about it. I hope I can make it. I've been worrying everyday, I can't sleep well and I'm dying soon.

All I can say is that I'll continue to stay strong no matter how hard thing is gna be. Everything will be alright, I know. I know.

Hope, Miracle, You

2011-11-13T20:54:00.008+08:00

(My hello kitty ear ring♡♡♡)

That one time when you scolded me busy body when i ask you who is the girl you like. That few times you carry my bag and walk with me. That frequent times when you assure me that nothing will go wrong. That countless times when you love me like a pouring rain and also, that last time when you got scolded by my dad.....

Are there people still reading my dead blog? Har-har-har. To whoever who is reading this, i really love you and appreciate a lot.♡ he-he-he. Few days back, i pack my room and i found out there're a lot of accessories, NEW, which i never use before or just that one or two times. Some are my mom's one, if you know my mom, you should probably know that she knows how to dress herself up and kind of like a fashionista. So don't worry, everything is not old or whatever you call that (but it depends on individual taste) :) My next post will be a give away post and i hope everything will go. It will be wasted if i throw them away you know... Will upload them on my blog soon, so stay tune cutiepies♡.

Have this thing in me wanting to watch 23:59 badly! I don't know why... Maybe i wna scared my butt off myself. Ha-ha! Hitting the covers now, work tomorrow and will be back in a few days time! Love you cutiepies xx

Everybody needs somebody sometimes

2011-10-31T00:20:00.006+08:00

(They say pretty girls are the happiest one)

First of all, i wna thank God for blessing me much more than i deserve. Why do i say that? Simply because i'm grateful that God gave me this family. To put it simple, i'm grateful that i've my parents and siblings with me all the time.

Whenever i'm sad, i'll talk to mom. She know's about (9) and blahblah, and Y. I can hide nothing from her because i'll only show my feelings/emotions/thoughts at home. Whenever i'm on the verge of giving up, Mom's always there for me. Whatever i asked for, as long as it's within mom's ability, she'll give it to me. When i'm taking my N'lvl, my mom was even more anxious than me, who's the one taking it. She encourage me AT ALL TIMES. Sending text to me, talking to me, accompany me to study til late night even if she has work later that day. Tell me, will your friends do this to you?

The next one is my Dad. Yes, we used to quarrel very often. But i know deep down, it's for my sake. He just want his daughters to be a fine lady. A classic one. Not the girl-next-door. Many times when he's angry and saw us doing something that piss him off, the first one he scold will be me. I used to hate it, because i thought he was just being bias. Now, i know he want me to be a good example and let my younger siblings to respect me. He's always protecting us, he didn't say it, but he show it.

My brother is the only guy that DID NOT hurt me. Even though sometimes we quarrel and fight, but those wound doesn't hurt as much as anything else. In fact it doesn't hurt at all. Even though sometimes he really made me mad, (eg. don't wna help me in somethings) but he will still help me find my specs whenever i lost them at home. Really, im lovely brother.

The last one is my beloved sister, Zoeyi. Yes, it's ZoeyiAlison on twitter. People have been asking me if she's my friend or whut. SHE'S MY REAL BLOOD SISTER. I'm thankful that i've got her at home, if not i don't know who i can talk to (except mom)... I'm glad that she's in secondary school! Because she's going through so much changes in her life and became mature and begin to talk to me and tell me more about her secrets. It's really nice to have a htht with her. :)

Well, you see, my family can do so much for me. Not saying that friends can't. But family are always there for you 24/7. Even if you scream in the late night due to some nightmares, they will also be the first one to hear it, first one to rush over to take a look at you, isn't it? Now i don't care about anything else. Not a single soul. It's just about me, my family and studies. Nothing else.

Well, it's my opinion, you don't need to agree to it. Because we have different views about this and it's life anyway.

And next up, is that i've choosen the right workplace! Well, it's kinda fun to work around with strangers and they are happy people! If you follow me on twitter, you should know that my greatest fear is meeting fierce people. Yes, i did met a few but i guess it's not a choice to choose to met a not... But so lucky to have a group of friendly and nice colleague working with me! Lucky me!

Without fringe makes me look likea kiddo. Xx(My favourite stuffy)

I guess the two photos are the same just that my right hand is at the different position. Hahalol! Okay, dating my bed soon, work tomorrow. Xoxo

When all you wanted was to be wanted.

2011-10-26T14:48:00.007+08:00

It is the end of October now and November is otw here. Very fast, 2011 will end and 2012 will arrived. Isn't it fast? Well, to me it's damn fast. Still remember when i was young, i feel like i'd waited 67823201 years just for Chirstmas party and Chinese New Year snacks. I mean, i really feel that way, i don't know if you feel that too.

So now, I've been working for the past 2 weeks, and it's seriously very fun, BUT tiring too... My leg was super pain and sore for the first few days.. However, i guess it's a part of life that i've to experience. Now, i know working is hard, studying is still the best. Just sit down on the chair, and we can still talk and sleep........ (hahaha, whateverrrr, but it's true!!)

Okay now, serious thing. O'lvl math paper 1 tmr. Gna study for an hour later, i promise. G'd luck to everyone taking O'lvl. Add oil! Add oil! (LOL)

I hope whatever i told you will motivate you, and not forgetting all those late night encouragement messages. Really. I've seen you persevere, you'll do well. I believe.

You could bring me up, or even down..

2011-10-23T12:51:00.004+08:00

Things will be better, i guess. Ever since N'lvl ends, i've never see him again. I miss him, very much.. But today, just now, half an hour ago, i saw him. I don't know if im dreaming or for real.. You know, i always thought that it's coincidence, but now, i really hope it's fate. I wna thank God for letting me see him again after a month or so. Well, this kind of things is so hard to say. But whatever is it, i'm still gna thank God for that.

So, i bought some PINK apples today, gna eat them during i work. Hehehe. Daddy, brother and Zoeyi is not at home til next week. Left me, mom and aunt. So quiet and lonely... Hope Zoeyi comes home asap, and we can talk about everything.. Okay, blog again when im home. Heading to work now. Hope i won't get affected... I guess it's so hard to be normal again. Sigh. Shan't not be like this.. It's so not me.......

We were both young when I first saw you

2011-10-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hello dearest readers! I'm so extremely tired today. Yes, it's my first day of work today and I'm already half dead. Well, not many people believe that I really work, some even say cuz' imma' princess hehehehe. (sweet but ironic) Ughh, but that's kind of true. It's so damn tiring. I'm at Takashimaya this coming Sunday, come down to flor~ patisserie and buy some cakes! It's nice, I just tried Berry Berries and Earl grey cake. Superb!

Even though it's just a work, but I still miss my mama. When I step home just now, I feel so comfortable. And my mama compliment me and that's what i feel worthwhile. Haha! On the other hand, I can grow into a independent young lady. When I reach my workplace, my just-met-colleague are like 'OMG SHE'S SO DAMN SMALL!!!' and I was like 'Uhhhh okay can.' I was asked to remember all those cakes' name..... Shucks, hate memorizing...... Reminds me of SS and History.

Okay, anyway, anyone of you wna work. Must be 16 years old and above, $6/h. Contact me in twitter (JovinAudreycia) or just text me. ^.^

Even though I'm busy today, but I still miss (9) very much :( and good luck to him for tmr's practical and it applies to all friends/seniors taking tmr's practical. All the best ~~~~

I'm done with today's post. Gna go and bath, and watch my shows too. G'dnight <3

Forever and Always.

2011-10-18T13:32:00.004+08:00

Hi readers! I guess it's another boring day today.. Well, you should go and have fun since exams are over. And for my school, my juniors should be receiving their results today. Sooo, how's your results? To those who did well, Congrats! And for those who did not, try your best next time okay. :) Dunt be upset cuz' it's not national exams!!!! Kinda upset with myself cuz' of my math paper 2. Hope I do well.... Pray hard.

[ Okay, and to someone else... Hope you have faith in yourself and persevere and not give up :) ]

A'right, heading to town soon. See you again next time lovely. G'dbye! ^.^

To be soft-hearted or stubborn?

2011-10-17T19:56:00.010+08:00

Ohai readers! I'm pretty bored this few days, and i've been watch cartoon shows on TV. (ugh!! what a life!!) What shucks? I sleep when i've got nothing to eat, nothing to watch, basically, when i've got nothing to do. I wna go out so badly, but i've no $$$. Feel so terrible to go out without any money with me.

But nevermind, i shall just wait for my calls, and anyway, i still left with O'lvl math papers. Well, it's like nothing to my class. NOT BECAUSE IT EASY, it's because, the paper doesn't bother us. Actually, we're like brain-washed by one another. Saying things like 'Why we need to study? N'lvl matters more' OR EVEN 'Can come back next year meh?' I mean like seriously. This is what my class thought of. So... yeah.

It's been long since I post something happy, everything's like about disappointment, sadness, drawing circles (emo or whatever-you-call-that) or whateverrrrrrrr. So let my blog be alive!! Okay, this is random..... But, idgaf. I can be beyond random. Like random-er or random-est like now? I feel like eating chocolate fondue (YUMMY!), and watch my Mr Bean. But then, i dunt feel like watching now.... Okay, wait a minute, what am i talking 'bout?????? Oh... im just trying to make my blog lively. Can you see the effort i'd made? If you can't, then too bad.

I'm so happy that i'm still contacting my Hong kong buddy and their friends thru facebook, twitter, email. They are all lovely people. Innocent and kind. Really. The thought of seeing them again crossed my mind most of the time. Cuz' i really miss them, and i miss the food...... Did i mention that i was craving for XIAO LONG PAO on one particular night. That was damn random i swear. (Prolly if you follow me on twitter, you've seen it i guess) Okay, now, i feel like eating it.............

Okay, shall go now, cuz' there's nothing i want to blog about anymore... If you are bored or something, you can read my archieves by post or month, (if you want) hahahaha, i bet you can improve your English (other than those spellings i spell intentionally, short forms or whatever) Oh well, it's your choice~~~~~~

Oh, last but not least, follow me on twitter, JovinAudreycia follow me cutiepies. Yes, cutiepies. HAHHAA, so i can eat you uppppp. Pies Pies Pies. If you're apple pies or blueberry pies also can. HAHHAA, okay, this post is gna be the first and the last stupid post i'll ever post. Forgive me this time. Bleah~~~~~~~

I'll come back tmr again to hide this post hehehehe. okay, bui bui. ♥

I'm trying to be ok with that.

2011-10-15T00:10:00.004+08:00

Hi readers, im really upset now. Very. Firstly, i went to the graduation night BUT i was late. Fvcking late..... and i missed the performance.. Secondly, we didn't talk. Lastly, i feel like we are strangers, even tho we know each other well (used-to-be).

I guess im not over with anything yet. When i saw you with your family, i thought i was part of you, like how we used to be.

You told me, 'remember this : i love you , not your family backgrounds :)'

Im still stuck. I still want to talk to you, tell you all my secrets, tell you everything that i did t'day, talk about the future plans we always make. Everything of me wants you. Yes, you. Why, why am i still thinking? It's been long since i really ask 'why'. It was 'How' that i've been asking all along. Asking how to solve this and that, how am i suppose to go on. Now, my brain is fill with everything about you. Help me. Please.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACINDA!

2011-10-12T00:40:00.010+08:00

(Happy 16th Birthday Jacinda ONG)

So hi beloved readers! Dunt be surprise that im back juz after 2 days. Juz wna wish JACINDA ONG MIN LI A HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY! Dear darling, be strong and stay happy everyday. Love you very muchie! ♥

Yesterday was very fun! Celebrated Jacinda's birthday in advance. Watch Real Steel and it was damn fvcking naiz. You should catch it. It's about robots and it's fast forward to 2020. You can see how electronic devices (like handphones, laptop and game gadget etc etc) gna be like in 2020, i suppose. I cried becuz of one small part of the movie about Max and his dad. SO TOUCHING CAN A NOT. Really. Lydia cried too! I guess we are very emotional people......... Overall it's naiz, i rate 4/5 stars ^.^

Okay, heading to bed soon, dad's gna scream at me if he saw me sitting down here typing instead of sleeping, and I needa go back to school tmr from O'lvl math intensive lesson. ~~I love it~~, NOT. And one more thing, i know you wunt see this, but hope you'll feel better now and get well soon.

'There's always that one special person that no matter what they have done to you, you still juz can't let them go.'

G'DNIGHT EARTHLING ♥

Sometimes, you mean nothing to someone, who means everything to you.

2011-10-10T10:57:00.005+08:00

(Miss them soooo much!)

Ohai readers, it's 10/10/2011. 2011 is gna end in a blink of eye. For me, this year is a very hectic and stressful year! Cuz of N'lvl, i guess. Even tho my mind was filled with studies, apart of you still linger in my mind, everyday. But anyway, it's gna end soon, and you know what? I dunt want it to end, no, i rlly dunt want.

Im so afraid that i wunt get to see you again, im so afraid that you'll forget about me. Im so afraid that, everything will never be the same again.... Since N'lvl is over, i dunt have the need to go to school, which means, the chances of seeing you is lower, and the chances of you forgetting me is higher..

(Please dunt be in love with someone else, please dunt have somebody waiting on you.)

Okay, i shan't be like this anymore. I guess im going out soon to meet alastair?? Gna get my breakfast cum lunch first, toodle~~~

Frankly speaking, i'll wait. Juz wait.

Chestnut Drive Secondary School

2011-09-23T13:58:00.018+08:00

(Now to then)

This is about my secondary school life in Chestnut Drive Secondary School.

Happy and bad memories that i'll remember forever. Friendships, relationship. People come and go. Things change, and will never be the same. No matter how much i hate this school, i'll still miss it after i leave. I know that i'll never get to contact most of them anymore cuz we're all leading new lives. But whatever is it, im gna thank everything that happen..

In chestnut, i did a lot of things, over the years, i change. I believe everyone change too. Things will never be the same unless it's fated. I know that it's hard to change ones mindset. But, i hope everyone will be happy. In CDSS, i grow. I grow into a lady with a bigger mindset, but not the size and height. The hours i spent in chestnut is longer than the times i stay at home. I learn to make decision, but forever i'll never learn to be decisive and firm.

Broken friendship taught me that people stay and leave. Nothing stay. Everyone leaves. Relationship taught me that moving on is difficult, but whatever happens, i muz be strong and protect myself. I tell myself that i muz not cry infront of anyone, I muz be happy. I wna thank all the people that stand by me whenever im upset, heartbroken. Thank you for being there for me.

Technically, it will be my laz week of school next week. Laz week of having lesson, moving faz in btween lessons, having recess with the upper sec cohort, having assembly, sing the national anthem and say the pledge. Most importantly, the laz week to wake up early for classes. I will remember everything i once had, those jokes, my friends and you.

Not only you. I'll hardly get to see any cdians once i leave chestnut, like how i dunt get to see my fav seniors too. I know my life will change, but i hope it will change to a bttr and happier one. G'd bye chestnut drive, i rlly hope to see you again next year.

It will nvr be the same anymore.

2011-09-09T00:18:00.004+08:00

(When im sec 2!!!!)

MT, SS & ENG N'LVL PAPERS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRR! But there're still more to go. History, Sciences and Math :( Not to forget, my forever-zero-marks Amath

To say the truth, i dunt think i can go up to Sec 5. Cuz of SS. Rlly very depressing. So many things not done. Its so hard to have self-control and g'd time management. But whatever it is, im gna put in 100% effort in everything i do.

(I've done trying to get you to notice me again. This is so tiring. I can't take it anymore. Try again next time.) G'dbye.

(ps. i found all those pictures that i've taken when im in lower sec hahahaha. ok bye. hehe. bye lol. byebyebye)

We are like strangers who knew each other very well.

2011-08-27T14:36:00.004+08:00

So, its gna be alright. I wunt die. I am gna study hard. And slap the papers on your face girl. Anyw, its N'lvl soon, Prelim's result shucks. So, im gna have some intensive revision now.

Will be back after N'lvl I guess. Xoxo.

-'There are always a certain people who aren't meant to fit into your life no matter how much you want them to.'

You know, i miss you, but you duntknow.

2011-08-13T13:54:00.004+08:00

Its prelim week, how great. Papers are harder than i thought. I feel like im not ready for N'lvl. Im afraid of failing again. I wna get promoted to sec 5. I wna take O'lvl. I wna go Poly. I want everything, but why everything dunt want me? :(

Celebrating my birthday t'day. Like i'd said, i dunt wna expect anything. Okay, bye.

I can't explain this feeling that I'm feeling right now

2011-07-29T16:49:00.007+08:00

09 Aug, National Day. 11 Aug, Start of prelims & iayb. 14 Aug, My birthday. Well, you see. Few more days to August. Next month is kind of hectic even though its my birthday month. Dunt know how to celebrate it too, cuz its exam period. Many days of ph too. And I hope, Aug will goes on smoothly. No stress. This month is kind'a shitty. You wouldn't want to know why too.

Fucking mixed feelings I'm having now. Why everything is not going to the way I want? Why? Tell me why? 'The Story Of Us' & 'Love Story' have been playing back at my mind. Why? Again, I've got so many questions to ask you. Honestly, I miss you so much. I dreamt of you, you. I ask thousands of people if dream comes true a not. Most of them said No. But I believe it will, as long as I dunt reveal it. Okay, I told mom about this dream thingy, and she said I'm silly. Yes, I know. I rlly am. I need to be braver and stronger. I promise I will. Thanks for being so supportive, mom. I love you. xoxo.

I juz wish i could save you.

2011-07-16T13:25:00.022+08:00

People always asked, 'Why do all g'd things come to an end?' I wna know why too. By right, everything should be over. But why? Why whenever i saw you, the feelings come back to me? Why whenever i wna text you, something inside me tells me, 'no, you cant.'? Why whenever i want to make things go right, and they juz went wrong? Why whenever i thought of what we have had, and then you appeared.

I believe its coincidence. I dunt want it to be fate. Becuz i know we aren't meant to be. I know. I rlly know. I juz got a lot of question unanswered. And i hope, it will be answered by you. People change, feelings tend to change too. I might not be the one you wanted, but i always wish and hope one day, i'll be. But, like what i've said befr. If you are happy with what you have/are now, im happy too.

I cant believe that im sec4 now. And everything happened when im in sec2. Time flies. I guess a part of me changes. My thinking, my attitude, my behaviour. But feelings? I guess it will fade.

People ask me why i've become so quiet, and i dunt know why. Maybe this is life. Maybe this is the change i'd made. Becuz of you, i change. Thanks to you, i've grown..

Its the 3rd week of school, and next week, its the 4th week. 1 more month to N'lvl. 11th August, the start of prelim. I'm not looking forward to it this yr.. Cuz 11th August was once the start of our friendship, your phone lock code.. and now, it don't rlly matter to us anymore. Becuz we acted like strangers like how we were bfr 11th August 2009.

Shall not get distracted cuz of this thing. No. I shall get on with my life. Kthxbye.

Tomorrow will be a better day!

2011-06-25T17:43:00.001+08:00

Hello! School start next monday, means 1 more day of fun, and i've to go back to school and waste my time. But one of the g'd thing is, i can see my friends. Well, which mean seeing people who i dunt wna see too. But its okay. Get used to it. Nobody live forever too. Everyone dies. I juz come across this 'Never mind what haters say. Ignore them til they fade away.' So true, hey, you will die one day. So dunt hate, juz love. You are pretty with makeup on, everyone is. But inside? Try eating some make up? Maybe you'll be prettier. :)

Okay, i've been studying math, and most importantly, practising my oral and picture discussion. N'lvl soon. Hope everything goes well. My mom is more anxious than me regarding my N'lvl stuffs and all. If i cant make it to sec 5, i guess she'll be very very very very disappointed. :( I'll study hard for the sake of my mama. Like seriously. My mom motivates me alot and im loving her, alot. ♥ ♥ ♥

Im done here, gna go Bpp and buy Gong cha with my sist, til next time. Maybe few months/weeks later? :b

Bye guys, g'd luck in your studies too! ♥ ♥

New blog! >:)

2011-06-24T13:03:00.000+08:00

New blog, but link not change. -UNDER MAINTENANCE -